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argh [Sep. 3rd, 2009|06:24 pm]
[Current Mood |rushedrushed]

Genestealers are eating my brain.

I hope I'm still excited about Space Hulk by this Saturday.. *quivers*

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Watching Torchwood Season 2 [Aug. 25th, 2009|11:34 pm]
[Current Mood |melancholymelancholy]

I've held off watching the last few episodes of Torchwood Season 2 for a variety of reasons.

Maybe it's the time of night, the fact that there's no-one in the house, but it is making me feel a bit depressed. The rest of Season 2, that is. I'm determined not only to finish painting the models I've got in front of me, but finish these last two episodes.

I've realised recently that I don't spend very much time on my own at all. Practically none. I'm wondering if this is just because it happens that way, or if it's because I don't want to spend time on my own. I've noticed that I've started to freak out about small things. Like noises. Lack of activity. You know, stupid stuff. I'm not jumpy, as such.. just worried. About lots of things. Is this that whole 'time to think' thing? I feel I have plenty of time to think when I'm with people and it's quiet, so I don't feel like that's it. Does being on my own make me paranoid?

The question is, is the solution to this more time on my own, avoiding it entirely, or trying to descipher some sort of problem out of it all?

You be the judge, I can't seem to have any clarity on the matter whatsoever.

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Singing.. [Jul. 4th, 2009|10:54 pm]
[Current Mood |melancholymelancholy]
[Current Music |Ashes to Ashes by Tripod]

There's something that bugs me. Sure, I know, it's an LJ post, and venting things that irritate one seems mandatory, but I feel that it's something that holds a spate of conviction for a change. Or not. Who knows. But anyway..

As many of you know, I have a tendency to sing a lot, be it in public or the privacy of my own home. Some may say I have no shame, but I think it's more a case of my love of singing taking the foreground to my own inhibitions, limited as they may be. Or, to put it more simply, I love singing and often find it hard to understand why people have such a hard time accepting me just singing at a fairly calm volume, to myself. If I was sitting/standing still and on a street corner, people may just throw money my way, but walking around in public and singing purely for my own enjoyment is somehow odd.

Now, I've never been one to really care what others think, or at least not in the last 5-10 years of my life. I know, or at least, I think I know, that my friends accept and love this as a part of me and don't care that I like to sing a lot, even if some of them may give me a bit of a wide berth for the time I am singing, and sure, that's fine. But what still sometimes bothers me is the propensity for people to mock me in many varied ways while I'm doing it. I know that this is a sort of violation of social norms, even taboo, but it's not a particularly big one. The funny thing is that I think I'd get less of a reaction if I yelled an expletitive at someone than just calmly and quietly singing to myself. And I guess the reason that it's now I've chosen to be bothered by it is sometimes ignoring all of those snide remarks, those douchebags dancing mocking little jigs in my direction.. etc sometimes my coping mechanisms falter and I need to let it out a little. I'll probably talk to someone a bit more about it later, but writing it helps a little.

As a side note, the other thing I find odd about singing in public is that people automatically assume you're doing it because you're happy. I'm often singing rather melancholy little ditties to myself and people seem to think I'm all super happy. *sigh* This doesn't bother me anywhere near as much, but I still find it very odd.

Thanks for listening.

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Trek talk [Jun. 1st, 2009|11:57 pm]
[Current Mood |amusedprobably should be in bed]
[Current Music |TNG: Who Watches the Watchers?]

We've been watching a lot of Star Trek The Next Generation lately.

I've had a strange obsession with Dr Beverly Crusher - for some reason I find her insanely attractive.

We're watching a scene where she's being all sexy and running down a cliff - and she's wearing that stupid doctor jacket she's always wearing that spoils the sexy somehow..

Me: I wish she wouldn't wear that stupid jacket..

Jane: It's her Doctor's jacket.

Me: But..

Penny: Damn it Allan, she's a doctor, not a stripper!

*sighs happily*

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Whelp, it's that time again - Allan's 25th [May. 8th, 2009|03:04 am]
Hey guys,

It's that time again, I'm going to hit the quarter of a century mark this year. On the 23rd of May, it will be both my birthday and birthday party for a change. However, I'm trying something just a little different.

Format: House Party. Will be at 1 Plenty River Drive, Greensborough (hither to be known as 'The House') Light drinking is encouraged, heavy drinking, while quite welcome, will not be driven home later. :)

Theme: Here's where things get interesting. I want everyone who comes to bring someone I've never met before, who will in your opinion will bring a stimulating element to the preceedings. Lately I've been particularly busy, so this is my lazy way of meeting new people. :P So let me get this straight, you are to attempt to bring a guest (if I know them they don't count to your 1+ tally but are still welcome, although they also should attempt to bring someone along using the same criterion.). This is obviously not mandatory, but it is the theme of the party - as long as I get a smattering of new people I'll be a happy bunny.

Time: 23rd of May, 18:00 onward. We'll be going til as late as it comes, because I have Sat'dy and sunday off work.

Now that I've given up on a format - yeah, bring an interesting friend. Someone who you think we'd like. :)

Allan. (is tired and has probably left something out)
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Joy Division. Explain. [Apr. 28th, 2009|11:41 pm]
[Current Mood |quixoticquixotic]
[Current Music |Joy Division - Transmission]

Hey guys.

As a lot of you are probably aware, I've been thinking about Joy Division a lot lately.

This all stems back, I suppose, from that first viewing of 24 Hour Party People, and that intense feeling that I was missing something. I mean, I've only got a few songs of theirs, but the fact of the matter is that Ian Curtis's vocals appear to irritate me like crazy. I can hear strains of genius, if not at least very good, echoing out through the music - but Ian seems to be ruining it for me.

So I've been soul searching. I've found one song that almost appeals to me - Transmission. It's really good, got a good beat and feel to it, good music - but about half the song is out because of the vocals. The bit where he gets to the 'dance dance dance' bit is good. It gets my blood pumping, it's exciting - much like a lot of what I get from New Order (read: Shell Shock - my god, what a freaking song).

This brings me to the second stem point - I love most of what I hear out of New Order. For me, it seems like an amazing step up from Joy Division. I also understand that there is a sad aside to this, that the fact that this came from Ian's ashes. And I think it's this, most importantly, that makes me want to understand Joy Division. Or rather, what people see in it.

Can anyone help me with this? If you can give song refernces that would be all the better. I'm going to try and listen to an entire album at some stage soon to try and get it some more, but I'd really like to hear what people have to say on the topic.

Allan. (has no idea why his brain won't rest on this topic)
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Coles Bushfire Appeal [Feb. 11th, 2009|02:08 am]
[Current Mood |tiredknackered]

Hey guys,

Something that I actually haven't noticed get a lot of attention on my own particular f-list - the Coles Bushfire Appeal. Spread the word people, this is something that virtually everyone can do, even people like myself who are currently out of time and money can do their bit to help with.

Coles will donate this Friday’s (13 Feb) profits from its 750 stores nationally to the
Government’s Bushfire Appeal Fund in partnership with the Red Cross.

Sorry to add to the f-list tally of what persephone_20 was mentioning, but it seems important and necessary for virtually every victorian to flood Coles with custom this Friday. :)

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Arrr, New Years [Dec. 29th, 2008|08:20 pm]
Ahoy mateys,

Be ye stranded on this ere new years eve? Ye have nethin er to do? Arr, then come be merry at our humble abode. We be supplyin a modest ship with a few trickles o' drink, but it be a quiet place and mainly bout the company.

My apologies for my terrible pirate, I'm going to give it up now. If anyone's bored on new year's eve, we'll be doing a small shindig at our place. I know it's last minute and I usually try not to do this, but we honestly completely forgot about it and have little energy - so if you're interested come over around five and have a little fun, a little company, and mayhap a little rum.

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The Art of Denial as a immunobooster. [Nov. 15th, 2008|01:11 am]
[Current Mood |determineddetermined]

Denial is the ultimate immunobooster.

I have no scientific evidence to back me up - but bear with me. For the last.. oh, week and a half? Two weeks? Jane and Toby have had a throaty coughy thing. It's been floating around me for ages. And yet, because I stubbornly refused to even admit I might be getting something, I have remained unaffected. This happens rather frequently, and I have managed to completely steer clear of things as virulent as stomach bugs through pure denial.

And yet the moment I entertained the idea even slightly, I have caught that damned throaty coughy thing.

Given this, I feel I have proved my point - but now I want to try and go further - using denial as a method of getting rid of a cold rather than just resisting it. I am now putting my brain back on the complete denial track - I completely refuse to admit that I am even slightly sick, despite the symptoms showing themselves to me. I AM NOT SICK.

Stick that in your pipe and smoke it, common sense.
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DALEK PORN.. [Sep. 19th, 2008|10:45 pm]
[Current Mood |ecstaticecstatic]

I have discovered somewhere where I can download DALEK PORN. Like tacky, silly, softcore dalek porn. My life is complete. Everyone, form an orderly line around my tv/computer.

Clicky for clips - I'll have the whole glorious thing down very very soon.

Note, this is extremely tame and silly, so don't get horrified by piston modified dalek thoughts or anything - it's just some old bbc daleks making their best attempt at 'feeling up' some naked 'lebians'. It's hilarious.
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